But no I’m not depressed, my emotions are unstable because of my age, the feelings that I’m feeling aren’t real, it’s just my age, my emotions are very real, I don’t remember the last time I was actually happy, I don’t remember the last time I showed a real smile, maybe it’s my age, or maybe I’m just fucking depressed
Is my biggest weakness, because when I’m alone I think of all the stuff I block out , because when I’m alone there is no one to tell me that the thoughts I’m having are not ok, because when I’m alone I over analyze , I think everyone hates me, I think that I’m a loner, because when I’m alone I have thoughts of suicide.
When I’m alone I’m the most honest, when I’m alone in my room, in the dark, I feel as If I’m already gone, when I’m alone, I feel a bliss, like it wouldn’t matter whether I was here or not, when I’m alone… It feels like I’m already gone.
Sometimes I let my anger get the best of me, but sometimes you make damn dumb decisions.
